Thursday, April 24, 2014

MIA

Added 4/25/14:

I forgot to mention that I did finally reply to the comments on my last post!


For those that commented on my last post, I feel I owe you an apology.  I hate not replying to comments.  I always want to let those who take the time to do so know that I really appreciate what they have to say.  Thank you all for your words of encouragement and for making me feel a little less foolish and definitely not alone!  The other thing is, I sometimes worry that I'm going to come across as too .... well..... you know..........















Life, as they say, has been, well...........what do you say that doesn't sound like a cliche?  Oh-so-busy, overwhelming, hectic, blah blah blah.  But really, it has.  Some days it's about managing to keep my head above water.  I haven't had time to leave comments on other blogs, which also bothers me.  I have been reading when I can, and sending out good thoughts and prayers.  I haven't been on my computer as much lately.

I've been working on learning some new relaxation techniques.  I'm not too good at relaxing.  

Some of the things I find relaxing are............


























I know that taking a nice hot bath is supposed to be relaxing, and I've tried that, many times.  After I fill the tub with the water as hot as I can take it, and get my bubbles going, I step in, ever so carefully.  Sit down veeerrryyy slowly.  Ahhhhh............  Sometimes I even light a candle.  And I've been known to bring a little drinkie poo in with me from time to time....  That definitely helps me stay in the tub longer...lol.









Sounds heavenly, doesn't it?  My problem is, after about 10 - 15 minutes, I start sweating.  It's too hot in there!  So I get out.  A friend recently told me to make myself stay in the tub....add some cold water to make it just right, and do my best to enjoy it.  I want  to enjoy it, believe me, but my mind is so full that I can't seem to quell them, even temporarily.  Sigh.  I have tried adding the cold water, and I am making myself stay in longer.

I've been trying to practice some mindfulness.  I would love to be just simply in the moment sometimes, you know?  Easier said than done, but then again, I'm not one who's easily daunted by challenge.  Sigh again.

I love this community and am so glad to be a part of it.  I worry sometimes that when I can't reply to comments as quickly as I'd like or leave comments on posts I've read that you'll think me inconsiderate, for one, and uncaring, for two.  I care a whole lot.  About so many of you.  You've helped me grow in more ways than one, and for that I am grateful.

I'm really hoping that Kane and I will have a healthy resolution to our situation with two of our kiddos soon.  To keep going the way we've been going is too taxing and wearing for all of us.  We haven't really been ourselves for quite a while.........a little over a year now.  But I know we will get there, with the help of God, family, and good friends.  I count many of you as dear friends, too.



















13 comments:

  1. You hang in there... It's just so tough, and I understand about feeling needy. sometimes I just don't post, because I don't have anything positive to say.. and I don't wanna feel like a whiner. You are not whining, and sometimes, it's so helpful to just put it out there, to folks aren't in your circle...

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    1. You're right, Dana; it does help. How are you doing? I've thought of you often and kept you in my prayers as you struggled with your recent loss.

      Hey, don't hold back from posting for lack of something positive to say.....Say whatever it is you need to say. We've all been there.

      Take care,
      Sadie

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  2. HONESTLY ? Stop it! Stop worrying about us. We know how much you have on your plate. ALTHOUGH if worrying about US makes you forget about all the other things for a moment, by all means worry away...BUT you KNOW that we understand.
    No where is it written that you have to comment on others blogs to maintain your 'membership card'. This is a no rules ( except for respect) community. Do what you want/can/desire when you can/want/desire.
    If anything people will be worrying about you because you haven't commented anywhere, not angry at you because you didn't.

    Okay I'd say jumping down off my soap box now, but I think we are the same height so that would have been overkill!

    I pray that some way, some how out of nowhere, a small miracle will be sent your way so that your heart and mind can finally have some peace.

    Much love
    willie

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    1. Thank you, Willie. I know that eventually some measure of peace will come. I am hanging on to my faith in God that He will see us all through and bless us with His comfort and peace.

      Much love right back atcha,
      Sadie

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  3. Sadie, your ways of relaxing are lovely, these are among my favourites too. I have had that problem with staying in the tub for longer as well, and sometimes it helped when I started reading, after adding some cold water. But maybe don’t take your kindle with you. My first one dropped into the water after reading two lines and it was not waterproof.
    I think life just keeps getting in the way again and again. There are so many things that can keep us from reading, replying or writing and we can’t change any about it. And since you are still working on resolving the problems in your kiddos’ situations, I think it is just awesome that you find enough peace inside to actually sit down and write. I see the strain and demands that the current situation still puts on you, and I am so sorry that you are going through such a hard time and can only hope that things will be better soon for you. Sending lots of positive energy your way.

    hugs

    Nina

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    1. Thank you, Ni Na. I don't have a kindle, but it's on my birthday list, so I'll remember to keep that in mind!

      Blogging and communicating with friends here really does help me sort out my emotions. I so appreciate all the support and encouragement I receive here.

      Hugs,
      Sadie

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  4. Hey, don't worry about comments and being missing for a while. Such small bananas compared with the stresses of life and anyone who has been around here for any length of time knows that it has nothing to do with not caring. I was thinking about you yesterday and wondering if you were doing okay.

    Ya know, I have the same problem with baths. It seems so inviting but 10 minutes later it's too much. I did manage a good half hour in a hot tub last weekend though. I know...oh the suffering. ;)

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    1. I find it it both comforting and amusing to know that I am not the only one with this bath issue...lol. Several others have said the same thing and even offered suggestions for soaking a bit longer :)

      Thanks for thinking of me. I hope all is well with you, Susie. We're overdue for a catch up!

      Hugs,
      Sadie

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  5. I love hot baths. The way I stay in them a long time to let the heat drain all the stress out is to put home made ice packs wrapped in a dish towel on my chest. That cools your blood as it courses through your body -- and, bonus! It activates brown fat, which burns up your white fat.

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    1. Wow, the things I have yet to learn! Thank you, Anon. I'm so glad you stopped by and commented.

      I wasn't even aware of 'brown' and 'white' fat. How does that work?

      I'm going to try the baggie with water and alcohol. Thanks for the tip :)

      Sadie

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  6. Oh, the way to make home made ice packs is to fill a baggie 2/3 full of a solon that is half water and half rubbing alcohol. Put that baggie inside another baggie and freeze.

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  7. Hey Sadie,
    I'm a non bath lover too - I get sweaty, and feel the need to wash my hair afterwards, lol. But I do love back rubs, sitting on the beach, or listening to a book on my ipod. There are many ways we can find relaxation - but when we have kids in the home (and you have more on your plate than most of us have here), we seem to have to find creative ways of squeezing it in. I hope that your faith will continue to carry you through, and that you will get the answers for your kids that you need soon.
    hugs,
    Cali

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    1. Thank you, Cali. Kane and I are getting the answers, but they're very difficult. I don't know what I'd do without my faith in God to carry us through.

      Hugs,
      Sadie

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