Somewhere Between Meh and Bleh

The past couple of weeks are a blur.  I haven't had time for blogging, although I did manage, here and there, to read a few posts.  I haven't had time to comment, which really bummed me out, because many of you wrote great posts that I wanted to comment on.  Oh, and I didn't even answer the comments I got on my last post.  Please forgive me, and know that I was with you in spirit.

So, for the brief update.........The battle continues.  The system continues to fight us on what we believe is best for our daughter and our family.  But there's something they're discovering in the process......... 

or you'll see a side of me you haven't seen before..........

Last week we had a meeting in a room much like this.........

The only difference is that, at our meeting, there were just three tables -- so picture it minus the one in the foreground.  The seats were filled.  We totaled 12 in number.  It was us (along with our attorney and an advocate from a parent group we belong to) against them.

Then, this past week, we were in a different kind of setting..........

We have another reprieve in that we are going forth with getting an evaluation for our daughter that the system is against.  

The main reason I had so little time for blogging is that I was working on putting together documentation and cross referencing it with information in a book that is written for mental health professionals (which I am not!).  

I was very fortunate, however, to have the help of a professional we're working with (not part of the 'system'), who was actually the one who suggested I do this.  She said it would be very important for the court to have.  Once she outlined what it was I needed to do, it was much better, and, by the grace of God, I got it done.  Time will tell if it ends up helping us achieve the desired outcome we're praying for.

In the midst of this, Kane and I had what seemed like umpteen appointments and meetings to go to for ourselves and our kiddos.  Throw in the fact that I was sick for two weeks (and needed to spend a few days in bed) and well...........it was NOT fun.  Next court date isn't for a couple of months, so I hope this means a bit of a reprieve for now.

So things should be better, right?  Well, in one way, yes.  But my hubby and I have had a rough week that started out something like this:

Usually by now, we'd have managed to work it through, find resolution, and move forward.

I did say 'usually'.

This time we're stuck at an impasse.  Different kind of impasse, too.  We tried discussing the matter last week, to no avail.  Interestingly, there hasn't been any Dd dynamic going on to speak of, with the exception of Kane reminding me once that I had not asked his permission to do something I was doing.  He told me to stop, I did, and that was the end of it.  I did say something about writing my thoughts to him, and I haven't done it yet.  I've done it before, and it's usually not hard for me to do.  I've tried a couple of times, but there's no flow.  So I'm waiting.

In the meantime, I know just the thing that I could go for right now......

I don't think I've mentioned that I love singing karaoke, have I?

Oh, and maybe while we're at it, we could have a Mary Kay party....

You know, like we used to way back when..........

Lord knows, I could use a diversion.  Care to join me?