Thursday, November 27, 2014

Happy Thanksgiving

By now the turkey has been put away, the kitchen cleaned up, and many are probably in bed.  I thought of you all today and how I wanted to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving before the day got underway.  Ah well, the best laid plans..........

I do hope your Thanksgiving was wonderful and blessed, spent with those you love and care about.  I've been gone a while, but you were never far from my mind or heart.

Trying to figure out how to do this thing again....the blogging that is.  For a while it seemed so difficult to come up with posts that, at the very least, would make sense to those reading.

I didn't intend to be away so long....kept thinking, "I've got to get back to it."  I've been trying to catch up with some reading when I can.

My good friend, Clara, encouraged me to write something.  To come back now.  Sometimes I've told her I just don't know what to write about, especially when I've been feeling overwhelmed, tired, and at times, apathetic.  She told me to write about it.

I'm thinking about it.

Sometimes I allow myself to get caught up in the ole tug of war --

Just write for yourself.  This is a place where you can let things out and process them.

Don't worry so much about whether it makes sense to others or whether you're writing in a way that will keep them interested.  Don't get caught up in all of that.

And yet I do.  Tug, tug, tug.

When life gets ho hum on the DD front, I think, "Well this is great, what am I going to say now?"  Especially when I'm upset with Kane.  I don't want to portray him in a bad light.

They say not to concentrate on or worry about getting comments.  This is your blog; you can write about whatever you want in any way you want.  I'd like to think I can do that, yet I have gotten caught up in wondering if what I'm writing isn't interesting enough if I don't get many comments.  Sometimes I've thought that the few regular commenters I've had were just being kind.

This is dumb, I know.  And the last thing I want is for anyone to think I'm fishing for comments.  NO PITY COMMENTS!  LOL  I'm really not feeling sorry for myself here, just being honest.  Maybe some of you have felt the same way at times?

Anyway, I think I'm going to try again to write as best I can from my heart and not worry about whether I'll "reach anyone" with what I have to say.  That's really not the point.  If it happens, and especially if it ends up helping someone, that is a bonus and a blessing.

This Thanksgiving I am grateful for so much.  This past year has been the most difficult of my life, but I have seen the glimmer of that light at the end of the tunnel, and am keeping my eye on it.

It feels good to be here again  :)




13 comments:

  1. No pity comment here my friend. I've missed you. Okay, I know how you've been but I've missed you here and I'm so glad to see this post. In fact I'm doing a happy dance, much like the snow dance, lol. I don't have many moves they all look the same.

    We've both got things to say so we might as well get back into the community! Hope your 2nd Thanksgiving was wonderful.

    Love ya,
    Clara

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    1. Well, Clara, your gentle, loving nudging did the trick. Now I just have to figure out what to write about...lol. I read your two recent posts, too, and really liked them. I, too, have known how you've been doing all along, and yet, it is so nice to see it in the written word. I know you're inspiring others :) And I will head over there now and and say "Hey!".

      Love and thanks,
      Sadie

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  2. I'm so happy to see a post by you!
    I agree with Clara, just post and write what you need to.
    We all have challenging times and withdraw..... Then we slowly come back.
    I hope Thanksgiving was good?!

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    1. Thanks, Minelle, you are a Sweetheart! I've been thinking about you. My Thanksgiving was wonderful -- we learned we will be grandparents again next summer (this will bring the # of grandkiddos to 5 -- we are very blessed and excited!

      Hugs,
      Sadie

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  3. Hi Sadie,
    It's good to see you here again too! And Clara is right - blogging is our place to journal and think things out - so whatever is in your heart and mind, that's what it's about. I hope that it's cathartic for you - it is for me - just keep going. :)
    hugs,
    Cali

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    1. I'm working on it, Cali -- you're right about the cathartic aspect of it. That's where I need to put my focus, I think.

      Thanks for coming by :)

      Hugs,
      Sadie

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  4. So glad you are back. Just be yourself. We like you!

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    1. Thank you, Anon. That means a lot to me :)

      Hugs,
      Sadie

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  5. Hi Sadie, :) It is nice to see you back around here! :) I agree with what was said above, just write whatever moves you when it moves you. That is what it is all about. We all get busy, things happen, you come and go as you want, comment when you can. People all understand. Look forward to hearing what you want to share in the future! Many hugs,

    <3 Katie

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    1. Thanks, Katie; I appreciate your stopping by to comment :)

      Hugs,
      Sadie

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  6. Hi Sadie,

    Oh my goodness, you are not alone in any of those many feelings about writing on your blog! I have had them all, then got over them and then have them all over again. :0) I even put disclaimers on posts that I think will cause people to be upset or leave me bad comments... Just nuts! It's your blog, so it should be how you are feeling and what ever you want to say is perfect!! As for the comments, well I have a few that come by and leave me comments but the number blogger tells me come by is just totally different. I don't leave comments at all the blogs I read either so I am not about to throw stones, but I am trying to do better and that is a goal in 2015 for sure. But heck, I am the first to admit that I don't always have a comment or advice I feel helpful for all posts.. Life does get busy and it makes it hard to take the few moments to leave anything too.

    But.....It's always encouraging and just plain warm and fuzzy feeling when you see blogger tell you that some one left a comment.. Then I hurry to login to see who it might be, what fun advice or shame on you was given and then the drum roll of actually getting into blogger and viewing said comment and more often then not laughing at the humor of it all. Comments do help lift spirits and making us feel supported right!?! So I TOTALLY get that!!! :0)

    I am with everyone above that says soldier on and keep making this blog what ever you want and need it to be and forget about the trolls and worrying about censure or content at all!! Even if the only thing you post is a GRRRRRRR... We all have had those moments and will totally back up that GRRRRR!

    Hugs,
    Irish Lucky

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    1. Thank you so much for your very thoughtful comment, Irish Lucky. You're absolutely right about many of us not having enough time to leave comments, or even read blogs, at times. I'm afraid I may have come across as implying the only reason I was away for so long was my concern about commenters and whether or not what I had to say would reach anyone. That's a part of it, for sure, but other contributing factors included the feeling that I really didn't have anything interesting to say or share, especially when the circumstances involving some of our kiddos is still ongoing and I didn't want to sound like a whiner, as well as some times when DD just wasn't working and I wasn't really sure how I felt about it all, and didn't feel like sharing it on my blog at the time. Beyond that, I felt at a loss as to what to write about.

      Thank you for your understanding and encouragement; I appreciate it so much :)

      Hugs,
      Sadie

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