Happy Thanksgiving

By now the turkey has been put away, the kitchen cleaned up, and many are probably in bed.  I thought of you all today and how I wanted to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving before the day got underway.  Ah well, the best laid plans..........

I do hope your Thanksgiving was wonderful and blessed, spent with those you love and care about.  I've been gone a while, but you were never far from my mind or heart.

Trying to figure out how to do this thing again....the blogging that is.  For a while it seemed so difficult to come up with posts that, at the very least, would make sense to those reading.

I didn't intend to be away so long....kept thinking, "I've got to get back to it."  I've been trying to catch up with some reading when I can.

My good friend, Clara, encouraged me to write something.  To come back now.  Sometimes I've told her I just don't know what to write about, especially when I've been feeling overwhelmed, tired, and at times, apathetic.  She told me to write about it.

I'm thinking about it.

Sometimes I allow myself to get caught up in the ole tug of war --

Just write for yourself.  This is a place where you can let things out and process them.

Don't worry so much about whether it makes sense to others or whether you're writing in a way that will keep them interested.  Don't get caught up in all of that.

And yet I do.  Tug, tug, tug.

When life gets ho hum on the DD front, I think, "Well this is great, what am I going to say now?"  Especially when I'm upset with Kane.  I don't want to portray him in a bad light.

They say not to concentrate on or worry about getting comments.  This is your blog; you can write about whatever you want in any way you want.  I'd like to think I can do that, yet I have gotten caught up in wondering if what I'm writing isn't interesting enough if I don't get many comments.  Sometimes I've thought that the few regular commenters I've had were just being kind.

This is dumb, I know.  And the last thing I want is for anyone to think I'm fishing for comments.  NO PITY COMMENTS!  LOL  I'm really not feeling sorry for myself here, just being honest.  Maybe some of you have felt the same way at times?

Anyway, I think I'm going to try again to write as best I can from my heart and not worry about whether I'll "reach anyone" with what I have to say.  That's really not the point.  If it happens, and especially if it ends up helping someone, that is a bonus and a blessing.

This Thanksgiving I am grateful for so much.  This past year has been the most difficult of my life, but I have seen the glimmer of that light at the end of the tunnel, and am keeping my eye on it.

It feels good to be here again  :)