Saturday, August 30, 2014

Back From the Beyond

I wanted to entitle this "Back From the Great Beyond", and then wondered if the "Great Beyond" meant the afterlife, in which case, if it did, I certainly haven't been there.  I've been more in a place called Limbo.  Kane and I are fine; we still have a lot to be grateful for.  It's just that, well, we've had so much to deal with and so many tough decisions to consider.  I can't believe I've been away for as long as I have.  It was not my intention.  I kept thinking I'd be back, so I didn't want to write a "Taking a Break" kind of post.  Every time I thought about it, though, I started feeling increasingly guilty for suddenly disappearing without a trace or explanation.

Not sure what else to say.  We're now on our 3rd attorney.  Things with the 2nd child are looking hopeful and good, and that makes us feel so good inside.  Things with the 1st child do not, and well.......

So what am I saying?  I kept thinking, "I don't have anything meaningful to write about Kane's and my dd life right now.  That aspect of our life is going pretty well.....we did boot camp last month, and it was a really good experience for both of us.  I'm just not sure what I have to offer to the community here right now, but I'm not ready to let you all go.  Maybe you won't mind if I leave a comment here or there on your blogs?  I do want to stay connected, if even in a small way.

If you've emailed me and I haven't responded, please accept my sincere apology.  I'm just now getting to the place where I can do that.

So will you forgive me for going off the radar of the Blogosphere without a word?  I've still been thinking of you all and have read your blogs when I can.

Life goes on, doesn't it?  And that's a good thing.  Kane will be having knee surgery next month.  And so it goes.  At least his knee won't hurt him anymore after he recovers.

I've got a lot of catching up to do.  I hope everything is going well for all of you.  Blondie, I read your blog the other night, and my thoughts and prayers are with you and Ty.

God bless you guys, and thanks for letting me express myself here.


  1. Oh thank God. I was too afraid to phone. Silly I know. I was thinking maybe if I had a few glasses of wine I'd gather up the courage, but then I thought, maybe she wants to be left alone.

    Yeah. I'm a mess when it comes to stuff like this! I look forward to reconnecting with you soon!

    As for your blogging, whatever suits you suits me just fine.

    Hugs to you and Kane

  2. Willie, as always, thanks for your support. There were many days (and still are) that I didn't even want to talk about it with my closest family members. Too emotionally draining.

    You are always welcome to call any time. If I'm not up to talking about that stuff, we'll just talk about other stuff. There doesn't seem to be any shortage of topics to talk about, especially here in blogland :P

  3. Hey Friend! I have to work...but I'm catching up and found this. I'll come by tomorrow and see you. You know where to find me if you want the real deal. LOL...that sounds funny...but you know what I mean.


  4. Yes, my friend, I certainly do. From one "real deal" to another, right back atcha. As much as I like to talk, sometimes picking up the phone in the midst of all this intense stuff seems overwhelming, especially when you don't want to be a drain on someone. You know where to find me, too, Susiekins, and if you ever just want to give me a holler, I hope you know you can do so any time. I'd love it :)